Yesterday I hit a milestone in my life. I hit the big 5-0. And while people think I am upset about that, it is quite the opposite. I am extremely proud of that. Yesterday was picture-perfect weather, had fun with my aunt and then met up with friends later at night. Of course I got some cool new sneakers and Doc Martens (pics soon). No matter my age, I still refuse to grow up ;)
It was funny hearing people say "Wow, you made it to 50!" but then I realized that it IS a huge deal. I have lost friends in my class recently since 2015, and if they were here today, they would have loved to "complain" about turning 50. This really is like turning a corner. I hated my teenage years and most of my 20s. But when I turned 30, I always said it felt like someone lifted a blanket off my face. And then turning 40...wow! Now 50...oh yeah! I don't look or feel older though I have noticed a change in the way I think about things. Ideals that I held true seemed to disappear, and while I'm not mellowing out per se, I am letting go of whatever inhibitions I had. I spent most of my life having to explain myself to people but that's going away too. I thought I wanted a ton of friends. It's like my friend Susan said, "Better to have four quarters than 100 pennies."
I should know. Pennies don't work in toll booths.
Anyway, I am embracing the aging process. Any day I can open my eyes is a good day. As long as I don't feel the pull of wearing polo shirts and khakis, I am fine. I don't agree with cookie cutter suburbia. I was definitely cut from a different cloth...
...and then the fabric was discontinued ;)
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